Hey Jealous Lover

Do you know what's the problem with having your birthday coinciding with a public holiday? It's not twice the joy but instead misery. Let me explain the reason why. Well, in regards to the holiday(Aidiladha), your birthday will be a step down the ladder in terms of significance. In other words, you'll have to take a backseat and become a spectator on your day.

It doesn't really matter to me that very few people recall that it's my birthday. However, I wanted to be alone today at home. I can't even have that since my relatives are over at my house. Moreover, it was my youngest sister's birthday yesterday(she's 3 now), so she has a cake and everything. Then my relatives come over to the house and they realise it's her birthday cake and they're congratulating her etc. In a nutshell, of course I feel sidelined, neglected.

I'm the eldest, I have to relent. I have to sacrifice. I get--- nothing.

F***I just want to be alone today. I'm 22 now and I feel like shit.